Iam coming!

Iam coming! Everyone but you knows that Iam coming and soon I will be there. I could scream it out loud and I don't think that you'd hear. My voice has been silenced in your life and all memories of us have been packed away in a box and locked up in diaries. You have banned me from paradise and sent us to some sacred place that you will never revel... Iam left wishing that I had not hurt you that way...
I read somewhere this week that we can not change that which has been done, but it is up to us to write what will come. Thats what I have to start doing. I must stop writing about the past and rediscover present and future for in them lies the happiness which I seek. And, maybe in some other life, where we will meet again, things will be much different.

Isnt it ironic?

I was going through some old cds today... and there I found a cd some one had made for me to help keep my mind off the pain of losing you... very old cd. It´s been 5 years now.
This cd always reminds me of us. Especially the song that sais: I was born to tell you that I love you!

Isnt Ironic?? ...

Closer than ever...

Iam flying over, flying over to the places that we thought once to belong only to us. And although you may not be there now, for it has been so long, I know that I will find you. For you are in the wind that blows there, you are the sun that warms the cool waters and your voice rises above all in the melodies the birds sing each morning.

Closer to you than ever ....

I must confess that Iam scared; Afraid to be sucked in by the sorrow of being there and not being able to hold your hand. But at the same time, love, I trust that I will speak and that you shall hear each word.
And on July the 20th of this year I will take these messages and I will put them in a bottle and toss them out to sea in hope that they will find their way to you. And, if in such a dangerous and long journey, they do go astray, Iam hoping someone will find them and realize that out there, there are people like us that have loved so trully and deeply and that we feel blessed for it.
I leave you for now with a lasting kiss.
Be well my love.