Passing days...

Here I am where I have always been, waiting for your words... But this time I am not waiting on you and although my arms are still open they wait not on you. Slowly, my sweet, time has made these swolen eyes of mine look over the endless body of water which I was drawning in, and see the not so terrifing horizon that has been paciently awaiting me.
It is hard to look away, it is hard to believe in an existance that is not in your presence as I had once imagined it.
Huuummmmm... Deep breaths and small trimbling steps...its painful turning my back on us. But I have seen you...I have seen you smile like you once smiled with me and I know now that you have found peace and that you are well. For that I am grateful and give grace everyday.
I know you have read my words and have long waited these words that set you free. My sweet you are free!!! Fly above all pain, free yourself of the promises that we exchanged and embrace the life you have been running from. This is my gift to you. The gift of life, the gift to love someone more than I once loved you. Take it and be happy. Take it and never look back for I shall no longer be here; I will be looking down on you as you smile upon the wonderful life you were blessed with.
Go now, be free!!